At the end of the day I can’t say I emerged simply
I’d love to
Not to think too much
Second guess
It’s like an elixir
At the end of each day I’m drunk, and at the same time sober
Full of words and expectations
Staring into the cold, vast night sky
But I’m not so eloquent as to find the words I want to sing with
I feel a sense of belonging;
Oneness with the world
But at the same time feel it slip away
Grain by grain
Complicated by the mundane tasks
I dance, trip, weave and
Fall blindly through
At the same time able to see myself always falling short
This is how it is
There is never enough
Of me or for me
I’m a hard person to satisfy
And I can’t settle for simplicity or oneness
There has to be more to satisfy my soul
Always searching
Always rambling
I’m not good at names of theories
But I understand
Their cogs and wheels
I see the intricacies
I see the good
I’m not often a first choice
I love too hard
And fall too far
I want to include to many details
And instead end up stuttering, stammering
Wondering where to begin
Then how to end
I am not eloquent
I don’t know if I have what would matter if it were wasted in the first place
I spend too much time wondering
And never enough in contentment at my own achievements
But I am myself